You know what.. I call LOAD OF BULL SH*T. Where I'm from we call this a "load of baloney" this is what I wish I could say, I wish I could tell him to f*ck off and go die because I literally hate him. Last time we texted I *did* actually tell him that I literally hate him and never want to talk to him again, (granted I did say 'sorry I'm being such a b*tch about it' because I felt guilty after) but what about that says "please continue to try to reach out to me" NOTHING. nothing about that says that.
He treated me like sh*t for three and a half solid years when all I wanted was a real relationship, he twisted my mind and my thoughts and made me hate myself and hate him and his whole family. It's funny how he thinks it's not stalking to repetitively contact me and try to make me feel bad, he "misses" me, well too f*cking bad. I miss my joy and good feelings. I miss having friends, I miss the person I was before all of this horrible sh*t happened, but she's dead and gone forever. Now I have to put on a good face to continue my "normal life" but honestly I feel like rage-quitting literally everything. *table flip* yelling "I'm done f*ck everything!" does anyone else feel like this or is it just me?
If I said anything it would be the same sh*t, that I "wasn't an angel either" blah blah blah, I never claimed to be perfect. All I did was call him an asshole when he was literally being an asshole, I didn't try to warp his reality like he did to me, I just can't handle this. I hate his innocent game, victim mentality, he's an asshole, plain and simple. I'm never dating again, never leaving my house again.
I wonder how long he's going to be doing this to me for, why can't he just move on and get a f*cking life, I literally hate him. If he really cared about me he would leave me alone, and he wouldn't have been a jerk to me in the first place. I'm not going to respond because maybe then it will stop faster, but I'm really really mad, and also sad. Thanks for the guilt trip bro, thanks for the nightmares dude, thanks for literally nothing scum of the earth! Then I get to feel guilty about feeling this angry in like five minutes I'm sure.
Okay, I think I'm done. Time to eat something, like my own dead-ass soul. This is a fight response right?